it’s bliss

it’s so much easier to whine and rant about our problems (petty or not-so-petty) than to heed the little blessings that are sprinkled all in between (or maybe, the problems themselves are the blessings). thank god i happen to recognize some of those blessings even if they were skirted and made-up to look like gifts from the devil.

these past 2 weeks, i’d like to believe that i’ve come across a milestone in my work life: i went (or am going on) an overtime feast. this entails…

…staying in the office for at least 12 hours a day, except on mondays when it’s the results of Philippine Idol. that means getting an average of 5-6 hours of sleep a day, since that’s still exclusive of travel (3 hours–back and forth from fairview to makati), eating and getting ready for work/bed (1 hours), and the extra work i take home to finish or review before hitting the sack (1-2 hours).
…going to work on a saturday, giving up hours and hours of sleep to do more work, albeit the lack of overtime pay.
…totally zoning out of my loves in life–goodbye family, goodbye lablayp, goodbye climbing.

i continue to feel that working this much is unhealthy and unfair. i still don’t agree that our office should be given these much projects in such little time to do them–after all, when all is said and done, the management should know that it’s the quality of work that deteriorates (though the same is happening to its employees’ health and well-being!), which may just go around and slap us all in our drooping, eye-bagged faces if there are lapses or inconsistencies that are found in them (and why should that be surprising? they were rushed and crammed and worked on by sleep-deprived brains).

*it’s funny how the bitterness appears more exaggerated in print than when i just run these thoughts in head.

but wasn’t i talking about blessings? yes, indeed i was. because despite of the hellish weeks, i found learnings, encouragement, and even joy. i got to spend more time with my officemates and find comfort in their company. i got to know them better individually, and at the same time, as a group–nothing beats getting crazy over the same sentiments. after committing mistakes in some of my projects, i bore witness to a non-violent, pardon-ing (?) gesture from my boss, which now allows to be feel less paranoid about doing something wrong. my charts and analysis are far from perfect, but to be corrected is a learning in itself, and it’s great to feel that our boss recognizes improvements in our output, and says this directly to us. i am thankful of my family who doesn’t give me crap about staying in the office late, and simply shuts up and drives me to and from places that i need to go to; somehow, they find a way to take care of me even if there are no hours left to share between us except that one hour ride from the mrt to the house! miel and i did not get to see each other for a whole week, nothing more to say about that, except that time apart and changes in our routine can be quite healthy, somehow. so i just appreciate that.

my list may go on and on but this is enough time spent writing now. madami pa akong gagawin. i’m just happy to know that crying it all out to sleep one night does not make me a weak person, and actually, re-energizes me and makes me work better the next time around.

promise, the next one won’t be about work!